As some of you may or may not know, we recently lost our little baby. I was 18 weeks pregnant and went in for a routine ultrasound to find out how the baby was doing and hopefully if we were blessed with a boy or a girl. Unfortunately, the routine ultrasound turned into something not so routine for Steve and I. We found out our little one had passed away sometime within the previous week. Needless to say we were devastated. We were all so very excited to add this little one into our home. Michael couldn't wait to be a big brother again, hopefully to a little brother, and Megan was so excited to have someone to hold and kiss.
Although the week has been difficult, we have found much comfort in the arms and prayers of our ward family here in Belmont. They all have been absolutely amazing! We also have had the support and love needed from each of our families and truly could not have moved forward with the faith we have without them.
We have felt the awesome power of love the Lord provides to those who are hurting. We have gained a greater appreciation for the eternal plan....not just the earthly life we are currently living. Steve and I now look at our children with a different set of eyes; truly amazed at the sheer miracle of their life but also all they have brought into our family. They are the only medicine I needed. They have both filled the hurt in my heart and have helped me to move forward, remembering they are still here and still need their mom.
We know, one day, we will be with Joy again and be able to raise this precious spirit. We know, life is uncertain and so live every day to the very, very best we can....for we truly do not know what will come tomorrow. I wrap my arms around my loved ones tighter than ever before and say "I Love You" and "I am so proud of you" as much as I can to let them know how important they are to me.
We are given trials that at times seem bigger than anything we could ever handle, but, with the Lord on our side, we can be blessed with the strength to overcome all things. His ways, are not our ways, and if we trust in Him, have faith in the plan He created for each one of us, we will be just fine. He will never abandon us, instead, he will stand next to us and help us navigate all the pitfalls and mountains that come our way.
Without the trials in my life thus far, I would not have been able to gather the strength and faith needed to find my way through this most recent one. I give thanks to my God....for He will never, ever abandon me.
Here are some pictures of the furniture I painted for baby Joy. It was a painstaking process, but worth every cramp, every foot that fell asleep and every paint stain on my clothes. We did find a wonderful home for all of our baby items to go where a special little boy is enjoying all of it. Even in times of desperation and heartache, little blessings and joys pop up all around you. This was one of them.
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